My Stillbirth Story | Finding out our son passed away 1 day after his due date

  • Published on: 23 January 2019
  • After 4 1/2 months, I was finally able to sit down and talk about the day we lost Braxton. After a completely healthy pregnancy, my son passed away and I want to share my story to bring awareness to Stillbirth. I plan to talk about my labor in the next video and I also plan to talk about the reason Braxton passed away and the information I have learned about Stillbirth since then. If I knew that information before, my son would be alive today.

    If you have also lost your baby please know that you are not alone. xo

    My IG: @feli_urvana

    Music by: Bensound

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  • Dani Hamilton
    Dani Hamilton   23 hours ago

    Aww my baby son is named Braxton 😭❤️🙏🏼🙏🏼 and my twin and I birthday is sept 13! so sorryy you had to go through this!

    ALEIDA RIVERA   1 days ago

    You know, doctor do that, they let me with 40 weeks, my water broke and they gave a c-cection he already have 3 time the cord around his neck, but he made it, im so sorry for your los i can feel your tears

  • tyree bruce
    tyree bruce   4 days ago

    Braxton was a beautiful baby!! I can’t imagine in a million years losing a child that way! I can’t imagine first trimester, 2nd but right at the due date when he SHOULD have been safely in your arms there is just something SO awful about that!! He was BEAUTIFUL momma and I’m SO very sorry!!!

  • Nicole Violet
    Nicole Violet   1 weeks ago

    I just had my daughter stillborn at 38 weeks her umbilical had wrapped around her neck, they made me get tested for covid so I had to give birth in a covid isolation room. :( it has been the hardest thing I've ever experienced but it helps to know I'm not alone.

  • Jenny
    Jenny   2 weeks ago

    What an incompetent tech wtf was on her mind?! Like of course you want to hear the heartbeat to make sure everything is okay lacking common sense

  • Jenny
    Jenny   2 weeks ago

    This is good to inform pregnant moms to always have a Doppler machine

  • Jenny
    Jenny   2 weeks ago

    I can’t believe she’s 30 and still didn’t finish school

  • Patricia Parmer
    Patricia Parmer   2 weeks ago

    My 34 year old daughter passed away in July of 2018. She left behind twin boys who were 10 years old. She loved children so much so I find peace thinking she has a hand in caring for all the sleeping babies and babies born too sick to survive. I miss Jenna so much even today the loss is overwhelming.

  • catherine hutchinson
    catherine hutchinson   2 weeks ago

    You are so beautiful and so brave. I lost two children to stillbirth and spent years not talking about it keeping everything inside. After my second I couldn’t have any more children so I have went through life childless. I wish I could have been as brave as you because I would have had a much happier life. You keep sharing and constantly talking because as long as his name is on peoples lips he will never be forgotten ❤️🙏

  • Stephanie McGuire
    Stephanie McGuire   3 weeks ago

    I admire your strength to share your story. This video helped me after I had my miscarriage. I found out after going in for an ultrasound to find out the gender 😥

  • Nawaal Kaxmi
    Nawaal Kaxmi   3 weeks ago

    I have lost my healthy 8 months baby who suddenly died in womb just 20 days ago... I can feel your pain

  • Alexis Gonzalez
    Alexis Gonzalez   3 weeks ago

    I’m so sorry for your loss. But as a healthcare professional it is our job not to worry the patient. If there is something wrong with a pregnancy our job is NOT to put more stress on your mind. Everything you feel, the baby feels. Stress also causes complications during pregnancy. We do our best. We really do. It’s not being dismissive it’s being optimistic. We can’t tell what’s going on until we actually have some sort of insight. It’s a very sad situation. I’m sorry you had to go through something like this, breaks my heart to even think of the pain you must be going through. God has a plan, he has a path, and he would never put you through something he knows you wouldn’t be strong enough to handle. Sometimes we don’t understand it, maybe our hearts will never allow us to, but let him into your heart & you will see that Braxton was meant to love you for as long as he did & now he watches over you. You are his mom, you are all the love he knew & could ever need. I pray you heal from this. I am so sorry.

  • Daveys Odyssey
    Daveys Odyssey   3 weeks ago

    I’m so sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine how much pain you are going through. Losing a baby is something no mother should ever feel. You are a perfect mom to him. He is in heaven watching over you.

  • Gail Lampert
    Gail Lampert   1 months ago

    Sweet girl. I saw your previous video and how happy you were in your photos while waiting for your precious little Braxton. I am so sorry that that happened to you. My heart goes out to you and your husband. I lost my sweet little baby girl Barbara Michelle in 1988. It was Mother's Day. That was 31 years ago and I still miss her. God Bless you and your little boy.

  • Olivia Jo Messer
    Olivia Jo Messer   1 months ago

    There is always a cause for these things. It always depends on what

  • Harvest Gleaner
    Harvest Gleaner   1 months ago

    😢 Our baby girl, Abigail Hope, was stillborn on 02-22-2020. She was 7 lb 12 oz, and 21 in long. She was and is absolutely perfect. I love her so much. She will always be a part of my heart, just like Braxton will always be a part of yours. Thank you for sharing your story. I HATE that you had to go through this pain... but it does help to know that I am not alone, that I'm not the only person in the world that this happens to, because that's how it feels sometimes. Thank you for sharing ❤

  • M P
    M P   1 months ago

    Online looking for support and peace gave birth to my boy at 32 weeks 4 days ago on the 4/4/20 he was stillborn one day he was fine moving lots next day they told me he was dead and I have to deliver him.the most painful thing iv ever had to deal with in my life I’m broken.just looking for mums that have been through the same thing for support it’s still so fresh.just want to know how you got through 💔

  • Amanda Phillips
    Amanda Phillips   2 months ago

    Here they will induce at 39 weeks if u feel uncomfortable or jus feel like u need to goin over due puts u at risks it makes me mad bc they let u go that long plz don't blame urself I blame the doc he knew the risks don't give up plz bc it's not your fault at all

  • Bonnie Alvarez
    Bonnie Alvarez   2 months ago

    Thank you for sharing, I was 35 weeks pregnant with my baby boy this March 2nd 2020. You definitely describe everything that I went through as well. This definitely brings a space to increase everyone’s awareness to advocate for our maternal intuition. Thank you for making this video. I don’t feel alone

  • FA
    FA   2 months ago

    I know several girl that get induced before 40 weeks because it just safe for the baby... I definitely blame the DR. One of my friends was getting itchy hands and the Dr induce her at 36 weeks or something

  • Gia Bono
    Gia Bono   2 months ago

    Your so beautiful 💕 I’m sorry sooo sorry

  • Amy Ehlinger
    Amy Ehlinger   2 months ago

    I am so sorry for your loss, Braxton was such a beautiful baby. He will always be with you 👼

  • Lisa Ann
    Lisa Ann   3 months ago

    I’m so sorry. I know your heart is broken. Prayers for a healing heart ❤️

  • Val Speirs
    Val Speirs   4 months ago

    So heartbreaking. He is beautiful and perfect.

  • Bo Jaxon
    Bo Jaxon   4 months ago

    I feel your pain dear. Hugs

  • Bobbi Holmes
    Bobbi Holmes   4 months ago

    This hurt my soul! I always worried about my son passing away because my mother had a C section with me because the cord was strangling me. They had to bring me back and when I was pregnant with my son I constantly went to my dr like more than usual because it. My heart hurts so bad for you and other moms that deal with this. From one mom to another I’m sending my love to you and your family.

  • Kena Pierce
    Kena Pierce   4 months ago

    I am so sorry that your doctor misinformed you about induction and I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss. ❤️

  • kirralea lindbeck
    kirralea lindbeck   4 months ago

    when my mother had her stillborn baby the nurse told her that she liked to believe that stillborn babies went to the mothers in heaven who died during childbirth, this gave my mum some peace at mind knowing she was being looked after

  • Bridgetta Winchester
    Bridgetta Winchester   4 months ago

    Damn feeling him move and then not being there later is awful I’m so sorry

  • Mandy
    Mandy   4 months ago

    I am sorry for your loss that is every mother’s nightmare, but the nurses and doctors aren’t going to give you the bad what if’s before they check. They don’t want to scare you and they want you to remain calm. I could have lost my baby as well I almost did she stopped exhaling I was sent to the hospital from my drs office I was admitted right of way my baby wasnt moving, but my dr was like I’m sure it’s nothing but we have to make sure. So even if you try again drs and nurses will always stay neutral until they know for sure something is wrong. I’m so sorry.

  • LizP
    LizP   4 months ago

    What was the cause of the stillbirth??

  • kaila0225
    kaila0225   4 months ago

    My sons name is Braxton! BORN 9/26/17 that’s so crazy! I’m sorry for your loss 😩😭

  • Dani California
    Dani California   4 months ago

    I want to hug you so hard I lost my baby boy to with the same name braxton lane he died 6 days after being born I was a teen mom its hard bc u carry him for 9 months for him to be taken away its not fair life's not fair let's just take a moment to remember the angel babies 👼😭💙

  • Janice Brocke
    Janice Brocke   5 months ago

    i am so sorry for your loss :-( Braxton is with Jesus.. You will see him again. He is an angel.

  • Just Julie Sette
    Just Julie Sette   5 months ago

    Hugs for you I can't stop crying, I don't even know you but sending you lots of love

  • Mummy P
    Mummy P   5 months ago

    Just so other pregnant mums know that doctors not inducing straight away is normal. In the uk they won’t induce unless you are 42 weeks. Because this is what is usually safer for the baby. Sadly for felly there were unknown complications that the doctors didn’t know about. Had they done a late scan they may have seen the problem and induced there and then. In most women’s cases babies who are induced at 42 weeks are fine. I can fully understand this mama feeling angry because her son died. The what ifs would play on anyone’s mind in this circumstance. Sadly some babies die in the womb. Sometimes there is reason, sometimes there just isn’t a know cause. Thankfully it’s actually a rare occurance compared to how many live births there are each day. I’m so sorry that mums and dad have to go through such a heartbreaking things. Never blame yourself. And try not to allow anger to cloud your grief. Anger is a normal part of grief yes. But don’t live there for long. It won’t help you.

  • To Be Continued
    To Be Continued   5 months ago

    Omg girl. You took FOREEVVVVEERRR!!!! To get to EVERY point in the story! Like damn. It wasnt even your crying you kept getting of topic.

  • allieponygirl
    allieponygirl   5 months ago

    Oh this is so heartbreaking 😔💔 I’m so sorry